its been a very looooooong time i did not update my blog... bout 2 years plus?
yes many things happen.. well... lazy to update.. just wanna say finally! everything's settled down... my bestie finally found her new life after her deadly after break-up life.. what makes me more happy when she told me about a guy is after her.. whats important is he's a good one.. hehe.. i can see how happy she is especially when she start to let go of her ex.. knws how to handle and enjoy life and met a new one!its good to see her non-stop smiling everytime when that guy find her and when mentioning about him.i seriously feel so happy for her.. i just like the smile on her face... the smile full of finally my job is done.i do not need to worry her that much..and what makes me much more assured that one of her best best friend is staying with her now..she wont feel lonely..i had done my responsibility too. means its time to get my own life.. stop sticking around with her...have to let go of her.. give her wings! in other words.. she got her freedom. hope this continues!
frankly speaking.. after taking care of her for months.. im already kinda use to it.. haiz.. i miss the days we cry and laugh together. 我真的很不舍得那些日子。舍不得和他们一起睡觉和玩的日子。我会很想很想他们。但也没办法，她需要自由空间。是时候也别再掉进更深的爱河里。我以经开始慢慢的不要对他有感情。一经开始把他当成朋友。为一能让我别喜欢他就是敢敢把他当成朋友和他讲话，fb comment。。我以经踏出这一步了。已经真的开始别喜欢他当他是我的好朋有了。我昨晚很开心。haiz... 可是TMD！！！！！ 当我们一起睡的时候。他整个身体压在我差不多身体的一半。。他的头在我的肩膀。。手在我的手上。我马上开我的眼睛然后望去left side.. walao!!!!! 我的头跟他的头差2cm..下死我！！我想闪一边。。可是看他睡的好熟 就算了。我整个人像个木头人动都不动。真的吓死我。第一次给一个男人睡觉动我的身体。更couple没分别！！！walao!!!! 那个感觉。很有安全感。shit! that feeling i let go comes back!!!!过后他换别position..可是到最后他还是睡回来把他的手放在我的手上。很多次了。。haiz... 我将难得放开。。尽然在跟我搞pattern。。哇老。。真的第一次和一个男人这样。那个感觉真的很难形容。我真的不想要那个感觉。希望时间能让我望掉这个感觉。我要继续敢敢把他当朋友看待。。good luck to myself!!! =)
